Who did it?

Poem:

Today “I made” the effort or “you made” the effort to practice meditation-who did it? Seems you are wrong both ways: if I did it then it is ego, if He did then I am claiming a favor as per Qushayri. Seems you are supposed to go to Sach Khand and not even know you did it that’s why it gets complicated. To get advanced answers you might have to go to ancient masters. The problem with intellectuals is it takes such a long time for them just to get to a state of simple attention. They have to spend so much time just erasing. Where a simple poor third world farmer is already there. When I worked physically on the farm I fell asleep at 8pm and arose at 2am for meditation. Then had regrets only when the rooster crowed. A Poem of David Smith January 31, 2019 “Then there is a person’s passing away (fana) from witnessing his own passing away through his perishing in the ecstatic existentiality ( wujud) of the real. Page 121 #Qushayri Early Islamic Mysticism