Bewilderment

Poem:

I can’t accept the concept of bewilderment. If God is going to be inattentive that is his prerogative. That doesn’t mean I will be. Others have found God to be mean. Look at Tuka. Eventually it works and I engage going up. The practice must remain. Laxness can not exist. Transcendentalism is self fulfilling. I can always wait. There is little choice -super long practice begins in the dark. It is Life that is “bewildering” so why should I worry about Sufi bewilderment. To think of bewilderment itself is bewildering so perhaps I should not think of it. You just have to start over with Simran ( Dhikr). I am starting to include Islam. Although I have not even finished reading the Quran. I saw Mohammed’s sandals in the treasury building in Istanbul. You have to remember that in the beginning the supernatural did not arrive until two or three hours. After that you just get spoiled. Some bliss is not good enough. At some point you have to grow up. In Medieval Sufism they had stations and states. When will I learn them? Which one are they talking about? I don’t know much Arabic. I have suffered alone with very little guidance except that which is inside us. I am supposed to be at the climax but instead play the role of the constant beginner. The transcendental sublime may be where you begin all the time. At least I am not using drugs, drinking wine and watching TV all the time. On my iphone I just lookup obscure sufis and poets. The successful outcome of Simran is transcendental sound. It is a lot better than sticking your head in a meat grinder. Towards things in the world I feel less emotional. I am thinking meager should be my praxis. DS Poem December 4, 2018 #tukaram #bewilderment #sufism #kalabadhi #desertfathers #ianrenert Page 33: Knowledge of God in Classical Sufism by john renard Chapter 62 Discusses the “descriptions of the one endowed with Marifa”, emphasizing the quality of the bewilderment and the insufficiency of the intellect, but it does not express any preference for one or another description. From Kalabadhi Book of the Exploration of the teachings of those who subscribe to Sufism (Kitab at-taarruf li madhhab ahl at-tasaewuf) Page 136-137: Desert Fathers by Helen Waddell: The Abbet Silvanus with Zachary his disciple, came to a certain monastery, and before they took their leave, the monks made them eat a little. But after they had gone out, his disciple came on water, and would fain drunk. Then said Silvanus, “Zachary, today is a fast.” He said, but, father, did we not eat today? the old man said, “that was love’s bread, my son; but for us, let us keep our own fast.“ One of the fathers used to say, One man is found eating much and yet refraining while he is still hungry, lest he be filled: and another eats little, and is filled. he who eats much and refrains while he is still hungry hath more merit then he who eats a little one is full fed.