When your real history begins

Poem:

Your real history begins when you decide to get up at three. When I wasn’t working and getting another job started to look hopeless. I felt maybe I should do something worthwhile with my time. I could try getting up at the famous amrit vela and meditate at three. I was not just beginning but had already been a dilettante who had been to India and read most of the Sant Mat scripture. I just didn’t get it. Actually Sant Darshan Singh had shown me Absolute God in a long lyrical life-inspiring Glance so I had had a glimpse and initial experience. But this sort of hit or miss spirituality was not good enough. I wanted to see what would happen if you meditated three hours a day every morning with a target of 3am to 6am. I understood that at 3am Master Sawan Singh would show up. He said that after three hours you would go out of the body. So it is true after about a month I had formed a habit. I created a setting in the attic with a Zabuton and a candle. I took breaks with reading scripture. I read a few pages of the Guru Granth every day. I read the entire Masnavi and the Conference of the Birds. I felt my three hours may not be accurate enough so I thought of doubling it. I knew six hours a day was recommended to Kirpal Singh then that would be better so I gradually extended my meditation time to six hours. Most western men are barbaric primatives with a very disturbed chit. So it could take two to three hours just to get settled. It was like real meditation ( leaving the body) was only starting in the third hour. Before meditating six hours my transcendental success rate was low. But sitting hours starting turning the dial. We know that sitting in long meditation is like a miracle. But how do you move from occasional miracles to daily ones was the question. It seems to me the average dilettante meditates a little then just begs for grace. I did not like that. What one just executed Grace on himself by following instructions and meditating regularly for a long time every morning regardless of results and every day for like six months? After that my success rate began to go up I started to write more poetry. I became more than an intellectual. When I opened up the scriptures at random I was getting an uncanny prediction of my persona near term future. I said to myself I will assume I only have five more years to live so that I would not just waste them. I wanted to follow the path sincerely before I got too old to concentrate. I executed a five year plan sort of like I was in the Soviet Union. I sort of created my own religion. I even listened to music so it would be like devotion. All this I did before others even woke up. Since I was supposed to be dead at sixty I started to write my autobiography. I started to write poetry in notes following Simran kind of like Walt Whitman. I was very formal about it and sat in Lotus Posture. I found on a higher plane my own Guru doing Simran. Whenever I wanted to become Rich I thought of him. I found that transcendentalism is just where you go up your spine. At the same time I began to write my autobiography I began to shrink my stuff. After all it would not be polite to die and leave a mess. So I decluttered my things. I even said goodbye to the fat on my body. The best way to avoid paying for storage is to not have anything. You can instead fill your room and your brain with everything that is on the fifth plane. DS Poem December 17, 2018 #declutter #fengshui #amritvela #santkirpalsingh #santdarshansingh #waltwhitman #gurugranth #masnavi #conferenceofthebirds