Last Words

davidsmith208
Mar 23, 2020
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Last Words

We like to think that we will not be the one to die - which is called the denial of death. But now I find that my denial of death is no longer renewable. If I get sick with CoronaVirus and it does not go so well I will not feel well enough to write my last words. Actually I like to assume my daily exercise -tennis, Volleyball etc, diet, excellent reports from the physicians will save me. I may not even go to the hospital.

The other thing is I do not believe I am even afraid of death and feel prepared for it. It has now been 44 years since I began to meditate. With meditation as being the practice of the VDE (voluntary death experience). It is different from a NDE (a near death experience) because it is intentional and systematically developed. I estimate over my life I have completed approximately 30,000 hours of meditation with about 10,000 in the last ten years. With one year at 6 hours a day. A typical lifelong Buddhist Monk might have as many as 50,000 hours logged in - but he has been doing it full-time.

So what is there to fear in death?

Also all my personal matters I believe are complete and in order. I have a published book of my poems, I have 2000 more published in blog, my Autobiography to 40 is completed, the years after that are kind of known by my photos or poems and music. I have played over a 1000 piano pieces on youtube. I already did a massive declutter about five years ago and became a minimalist. Even my documents and old photos are decluttered and digitized. I have left very little work for some one to clean up after me. I recall a day when I needed something and it occurred to me - this will be easy I only have one drawer! That is the day I realized the beauty of minimalism.

In the Book the Denial of Death they list the Creative Solution - which is where your immortality project is creative work. In the Denial of Death there is the Romantic Solution - where you think love and having a family will be your immortality. I have pursued these solutions basically enough.

The only real solution is the Mystical Meditation solution so that’s what I recommend.

What about the future? My actions will remain about the same three hours of meditation with a tendency towards more, two hours exercise, reading and writing, piano. I have hoarded a number of spiritual books from the library -perhaps enough for three months.

Because I am ready to die does that indicate that I am going to die??

Arabic, rajaz

bi-kulli subhin wa-kulli ishraqin

tabkika ‘ayni bi-dam ‘ mushtaqin

qad lasa ‘at hayyatu ‘l-hawa kabdi

fa-la tabiba liha wa-la raqin

illa ‘l-habiba ‘llasdhi shughigtu bihi

fa- ‘indahu ruqyati wa tiryaqi

At dawn, again and again, each evening,

My eyes, due to love of you, keep weeping.

My liver’s been pinched by a serpent’s deadly bite.

Which no spell, however potent, can hope to right.